Think this might be my last blog...

Sorry about the last blog, my son sort of took over and pressed "Publish" before I could stop him. I was on the phone, so go figure. Anyway, I didn't pass out or anything while typing like it appears! LOL

I'm pretty sure this will be my last blog under this URL. My blogs have become a more private place to share my thoughts and feelings and I don't want to offend anyone I know IRL. I feel like I need a more private place that I can just 'let it all hang out' without worrying about offending. You know how the pregnancy hormones rage, if you've ever been pregnant.

A dear friend of mine said she heard that I didn't like people calling to check on me or that I was tired of people checking on my pregnancy. I feel so badly because that's not it at all. I appreciate people calling or sending me mail or whatever. What was bothering me a few posts down was that I felt like I had to be on everyone's schedule and people had to make plans around me. Which, there is nothing wrong with either. People have to know. My own parents are putting a trip on hold bc they are trying to wait patiently, albeit I don't know how patient they are really being. :)

Anyway, I don't know where else my friend could've have found out about my frustrations, because my blog is the only place I vent. Now, she says she will try not to call back until after the baby is born, which is not what I want at all. :o( She does not read my blog, so somehow word got to her...

Anyway, I think I just need a diary, type private blog and then just keep my Bebo which is public (to my friends).

Maybe after my hormonal days are over, I can start back posting on this blog and be able to do other things besides express my frustrations and joys with being a parent, and the throes of mommyhood.

I'm really trying to be patient with this lingering pregnancy, but it's very difficult for me to not be just a teensy-weensy impatient (okay, I'm hugely impatient, short-tempered and just plain aggravated). Today I was thinking about all the reasons why I need to have this baby and the number one reason (after my worrying about the baby's overdue health status) was my emotional state of being. I wake up grouchy and just plain aggravated with everybody and everything. ff,u,u,iihk,,,jjjhh,, jhjbjjjj .